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Tuesday, 17 November 2015
Broken by Sean Crawley
Broken
There
is a broken spoon in my coffee jar. It is one of those thick ceramic
soup spoons that you get in Asian restaurants. This one has a
delicate blue design around its rim and its handle is snapped off.
Because it fits inside the jar and can still scoop, it survived the
purge that I subjected upon everything in my life about three years
ago.
It's hard for me to say, but
that was back around when my daughter committed suicide. There I said
it, every time it's a bit easier - just a little bit though.
She threw herself out of a
window at her workplace in town. It caused more than the usual
chatter and horror. Not because it was suicide, that was happening
all over the place, but no one could remember anyone jumping out of a
building recently - certainly not a female doing something like that.
Girls were prone to pill eating or wrist slashing, and the boys, well
they either hanged themselves or drove their cars at terrifying speed
into sturdy road-side gum trees.
Teresa was my only child and
only twenty when she took matters into her own hands to end her
suffering for good. I couldn't understand how a mood could be
terminal. It was the ten years of sexual abuse perpetrated on her by
her aunty that did the damage. But what do you do about that? The
string of counsellors she saw all tried different ways to fix her.
One therapist, for $150 per hour, watched her play in a sand pit in a
fancy glass walled room overlooking the bay.
“It's a recognised
therapeutic modality,” the stiletto wearing psych said when I
flinched at the bill. Guess sand's not so cheap these days.
Countless times she had to
repeat all the sordid details – each and every expert wanted to
hear it for themselves. From the initial and supposedly
innocent
brushing of nipples, right through to the penetrative abuse, Teresa
reluctantly told it over and over. I don't blame her for giving up.
When Teresa's mother, my ex –
and I say that with extra exness – found out about the atrocities,
she refused to believe any of it. The perpetrator was her sister,
Teresa's aunty, my sister-in-law, the artist.
By
the way, her art
is pretentious crap. The bitch eventually admitted to the nipple
stuff but denied anything else.
“I was only being
affectionate. It was just tickling. I love Teresa so much. How dare
you think I could ever do any of those other things!”
At first the deniers claimed
that the counsellors must have planted this pornography into Teresa's
mind. Later they recalled the fact that Teresa once took an Ecstasy
pill at a musical festival – undeniable proof that the silly
girl was not to be
trusted.
“It was probably laced with
LSD!” they said. For fuck sake, give me a break. I believed Teresa.
When the school's year advisor
told all of Year Ten about how the parents' authority over their
children expires at sixteen, Teresa must have felt empowered. She
blew out the candles on the birthday cake and announced that Aunty
Silvianne was a lesbian who had been raping her for years. By the way
Silvianne is not her real name, it's her artist's
name. Her real name
is Cheryl and, when the truth came out, I used to call her by her
birth name and watch her go ape-shit. How could anyone believe such a
phony? Sadly, a lot of fools do. The police, well they mightn't
actually believe Cheryl, but without physical evidence it's a case of
one person's word against another's. Frankly, I don't think they
could be bothered.
Teresa was scared of her
mother. I'm ashamed to admit it but so was I. But that night when the
candle smoke was still twisting in the air, and when Teresa's mother
responded to her own daughter's plea for help by calling her a liar,
I found some balls and kicked my wife out. The hugs I got from Teresa
confirmed that I had at last done something right.
I have to thank my daughter
for teaching me the greatest lesson of my life: you can't fix
everything, sometimes you just have to let go. I realise now that I
had hung on to Teresa for too long. I couldn't fix her, and neither
could anyone else, no matter how much I paid.
Why didn't I let her go? Even
if that meant having to kick her out of home; maybe, just maybe, she
would have survived. I will never know.
Three
months after the funeral, my brother came and picked me up from the
hospital. Somehow I woke up one day and could feel the sun and hear
the birds again. A drug and alcohol counsellor who did the rounds
said something about surrounding yourself with decent people, and
throwing out all the rubbish. And he didn't just mean the empty
sherry bottles. So that's what I did, and boy did I do it with gusto.
The ex was long gone, she was
back in England. I heard on the grape vine that she had turned
lesbian – go figure that if you want, personally I don't bother.
And Teresa...poor Teresa...she is buried under a tree at my brother's
acreage by the Macleay River. She asked for that in a letter that I
found under her pillow two days after she jumped. The place was all
mine and ripe as hell for a good going over.
I couldn't believe just how
much broken and useless stuff was hanging around.
Old phones with no cameras,
cameras with no phone, cassette based stereos, floppy-disced
computers, superceded gaming consoles, VHS video gear, burnt-out hair
straighteners, face-lacerating electric razors, and un-rechargeable
electric toothbrushes all became one big tangled pile ready for the
e-waste depot.
Stained, ripped and
embarrassingly once fashionable clothing, undies with no elastic,
un-matched socks, see-through bed sheets, tired brownish pillows,
moth-eaten blankets, thin frayed beach towels, two thousand coat
hangers, and dozens of dusty pairs of assorted footwear, were boxed
for the Vinnie's volunteers to sort through.
Busted furniture, scratched
CDs with no cases, CD cases with no CDs, yellow paged books falling
apart at the binding, mildewy picture frames, chipped crockery,
aluminium cookware, all the stuff nobody wants, all that crap ended
up on the footpath out front. Good luck road-side collector nerds.
After I unburdened the house,
I focussed my new hobby onto humans. Friends, relatives, work
colleagues, neighbours, local shop assistants, business owners,
telemarketers, every member of my species that I came across was run
through my “broken-or-not”
filter.
About half my friends needed
scuttling. I was Captain Ruthless. Anyone who didn't float my boat
was ceremoniously scuttled to become an artificial reef for some
other species of fish – my days as a sucker fish were over, that's
for sure.
Then the relos got the once
over. How could I have overlooked such familial psychopathy? It was
right there in the family photo album that my sister made for my
fortieth birthday. Only four relatives remained, that's plenty I
thought. By the way sis, the album went into the fire, sorry, but it
was a book of side-show freaks really.
At work, I began ignoring or
standing up to the arse-holes. I laughed at my department manager's
attempt to pull me into line. He went and chucked a tantrum to the
big, big manager. Now she, who I always liked, she had her shit
together. She came and saw me. I spoke frankly, she nodded a lot, and
then she said, “Leave it to me.”
Later that day we all stood
around and watched our department head pack up his desk into a Reflex
copy paper box and walk out the back door - which of course set off
the fire alarm. Best day at work for a long while, let me tell you.
In less than two weeks my life
had been stripped down to contain only good stuff - no crap.
Simple, uncomplicated, real.
Teresa, I am sorry. I should
have let you go, it would have hurt but it might have been better for
the both of us. When you jumped that day I know you fixed yourself
the best you could. Rest in peace little one. And I thank you, you
fixed me. It is the wrong way around that a daughter fixes her dad,
but so much is upside down these days. I will come as often as I can
to your tree by the river. You picked the most magic place and your
uncle is a good man; he was good to you and good to me, and that can
give us all some hope.
The
spoon without a handle that fits neatly in my coffee jar slipped from
my hands and smashed on the floor. It will have to go in the bin now,
but not before I punch the fridge and scream at the cobwebs swinging
from the ceiling.
Mr Denton Where Are You?
On Monday the 2nd
of November, 2015, Q and A recorded and aired an episode that had
Paul Erhlich on the panel. His appearance was ineluctably refreshing
- he had no personal or domestic political agenda and he spoke
frankly on some topics that, sadly these days it seems, are
universally taboo. He opined on religious education of children,
growth of economics and human population, mining, taxes, possibility
of nuclear war and the scourge of right wing neo-conservatism.
It was easy to feel
the discomfort of the host, some of the panel and much of the
audience when not only such taboo subjects were raised but when
someone dared to offer an opinion contrary to beliefs that are widely
deemed unquestionable (let me state economic growth as one example of
a sacrosanct belief in the modern world). I get the feeling that the
debate on this show is strictly controlled to be within tight,
acceptable boundaries. Sure, sometimes the debate is allowed to
become quite heated or fierce within those boundaries, but some
territory (perfectly valid and pertinent territory) is strictly off
limits.
It is outrageous
that this show is the most open debate that is available for TV
viewers and it's even more outrageous that the ABC has recently been
held to ransom by right winged governments and mainstream media to
present a so called balanced view. These balanced view advocates
essentially want extreme right-winged neo-conservative views to be
able to be voiced unchallenged. And if that requires outright lies to
be aired, and character assassinations to be the norm, then so be it.
It is my belief these forces want to keep the masses in a state of
fear and therefore conservative in their voting habits – no wonder
the poor old Greens fare so badly on election days.
After this show I
began to think about the desperate need in this country for a more
open and fair debate on subjects and opinions that have been deemed
off limits. In my reactionary mood I do confess to a desire for
radical left wing viewpoints to be aired. I want (and I believe a
large number of us want) a show based on facts, a show that is framed
in secular humanist language, a show that gives a platform to
selfless well informed individuals and a show willing to tackle the
taboo subjects. At heart I want a show where hatred, lies and
deception are called out immediately. The Q and A fact check is a
great thing but I fear that it is too little too late. It also has no
teeth and by the time it publishes its findings the liars have
achieved their goal.
Personally, I am
passionate about the all pervasive myth that growth is good. Talking
against population growth and economic growth in particular is taboo.
I believe the mantra of ever increasing improvement that permeates
our schools, our sports and in the workplace, is just another
variation of the growth myth that is detrimental to our general
well-being. The growth myth is underpinned by a world view that
paints Homo sapiens as a flawed being marked by sin that must
continually strive to improve and redeem itself. This is
fundamentally a religious construct but also a modern Hobbesian
perspective on humanity. I want a show that will get us thinking
about and challenging these fundamental ideas we have about
ourselves. These crazy ideas that have us speeding ever faster and
faster to inevitable collapse. These ideas that are taboo to oppose.
In my fantasising I
was trying to think who could produce and/or host a show such as
this. You came to mind.
To my surprise the
very next week I watched you on Q and A advocating for Euthanasia
Laws – talk about taboo land. Your arsenal of factual information,
your empathy for humanity, your rational and calm demeanour and your
admirable and fearless challenging of emotionally based language and
questionable facts were as refreshing as Paul Ehrlich was the week
before. It confirmed my opinion that you could be the person to host
a TV show of the ilk I am trying to describe.
I am sure you are a
busy man and I believe you retired from TV altogether. But I sensed a
passion in you that might indicate that you are sick of the bullshit
and narrow debate that pollutes the airwaves these days. I wonder if
you may be itching to get back on set to blow away the infuriating
constraints that are holding Australia back from being a land of no
bullshit, a land of fair dinkum down to earth people who don't
blindly and mindlessly follow the psychopaths with all the money and
power.
Kind regards,
Sean Crawley.
Thursday, 10 September 2015
Time for Compassion
Dear Prime Minister,
Sometimes, when you're
smack bang in the middle of a storm that's been going on for a while,
it's hard to figure out what the fuck is really going on. Insanity
becomes the norm, up becomes down and knowing your arsehole from
breakfast time is a real challenge. And when that shit storm is of
your own making, well, it's not unusual to tell the odd porky pie and
to get a bit antsy about all the criticism. And we all know how
easily the adrenaline kicks in and the need to destroy all of one's
enemies from the past and present becomes an unstoppable obsession.
We are reasonable folk, we understand - it's bloody hard being in
charge of shit, let alone a whole nation. One can go a bit crazy
being the big boss – there's no shame in that. Please note Tony:
mental illness is common, it's not a sign of weakness and the
prospects are good if you seek help. And guess what? I have a
solution for ol' China, and I feel the time for compassion is nigh. I
will admit I was getting a bit cranky with you and the fire in me
belly was not doing me, or the dog, any good.
Let's face it, the
game's over Tony, hang up the gloves son, have a rest.
I've got a hunch that
you want to be remembered kindly by history and, believe me, a record
loss at the polls will one almighty piss weak footnote. Compare that
to the glory that would rain down, like a Golden Shower, upon a PM
who had the balls to chuck in the towel and say, “Fair shake of the
sauce bottle, I had a shot and I stuffed up. Time for someone else to
have a go. There's a whole bunch of folk, way better than little old
me, that could do this country proud. I apologise for all the
suffering and the international embarrassment.”
I know you will find
this counter-intuitive, but that's the bloody brilliance of it. So
much so, it just may even get Malcolm, or Scott, or Julie, or
Christopher, or whoever, in at the next election. And if it doesn't
and Labour get in you can rest easy that you won't be charged for a
GP to write up a mental health plan, which you may need when they
approve a wind turbine, or ten, up on the ridge at French's Forest.
Give it some thought
Tones, seriously, imagine the universal impression of magnanimity if
the bloke in the #1 top job humbly stepped down to let a mate step up
and have a shot! It's so freakin Ozzie mate, that I wouldn't be
surprised if Banjo bloody Patterson rose up from the dead to pen “The
Ballad Of Tony Abbott” which would become an instant classic to be
recited by flag draped primary school kiddies for generations to
come. And that pesky the dual citizenship issue? That will disappear
like coal mining in the 21st Century – that's right
cobber we are in the 2000s – crazy eh? You'd not only be a legend,
but your parishioner mates will likely petition Pope Frankie for a
sainthood – Saint Tony, patron saint of the nose (he woke up, smelt
his own shit, and dug a hole and buried it along with himself, talk
about one-upping the IS death cult in the matrydom stakes!)
Look, all that glory
stuff is one thing, but your health Tony is what is really important.
I'm worried about you. I've mentioned the mental stuff but have you
had a physical check up lately? I'm no GP myself - I've thought of it
but the Uni Fees put me off a bit - but I'm sure I've detected the
signs of early onset Parkinson's and Dementia a few times. That
interview that you did with Mark Riley back in 2011 was a red flag
for me – yeh, shit does happen eh? And that was before you even
became PM, these things don't get better all by themselves Tony. But
then again maybe you are seeing a GP? That constant dry mouth that
you just can't seem to wet with that forked tongue of yours, that's
a side effect of medication, surely? But really you shouldn't just be
treating the symptoms Tony, you really should have a break. I've
noticed that twitch in your left eye as well, the stupid media are
calling it a misogynist wink, but as usual they're wrong - whose side
are on they on anyway? And isn't it always the case that those little
quirks of nature happen at the worst moments, and always when
someone’s got a camera on you. And are all those cortisols pumping
through your body giving you a skin rash under your arms and in the
groin? I mean the way you walk looks like you're in a lot of
discomfort. If one didn't know better they might think you were a
cowboy ape. In the interim, try some Johnson's Baby Powder, I'm sure
Peta can duck down to Woolies and get some for you.
I know you love your
family Tony, and even though you still have a mortgage, I think you
can manage to take a well deserved extended break and spend more time
with the gals. I know I may be out of line here but I get the feeling
that Margie is need in of some loving, if you know what I mean
(twitch twitch). And your three not so bad looking daughters,
how long is since you had the time to do some of that Dad stuff with
them. You know, say, have an onion eating contest just for laughs. Or
maybe a family pedal to Perth and back before brekky. The spawn of
your loins deserve that quality time. Scholarships and cheap rent are
great, but now they know they haven't got a half brother the only
familial testostorone they're gonna be able to sniff is from you bud,
you know that. What a precious gift you could give them by quitting
your day job.
I could be all groovy
and righteous and say that I want you to step down for the sake of
the sick, the elderly, the children, the indigenous, the women, the
refuges, the unemployed, the gay folk, the wind farm manufacturers,
the trees, the koalas, and the Barrier Reef, and though I do care
about all that bleeding heart crap, it's you Tony that I genuinely am
concerned for. You care about us, you tell us so, and you've been
working every day for us, you tell us that too, so it's time we cared
about you for a change. You must have some sick leave up your sleeve,
take it – fair dinkum that's what it's there for – hang on your
not on casual are you? And don't you worry your silly little lizard
head about everything coming to a grinding halt, the torch you put to
red tape and the unions will guarantee that Gina and Twiggy and Gerry
and Coles and Woolies will keep us all on the treadmill 24/7 – open
for business just like you said.
Tony I hope you don't
mind me ignoring normal protocol for a change. I live in the seat of
Fischer up on the Sunshine Coast. You may remember coming up here in
2006 for a wedding, I think it cost you $609.10? Beautiful place up
here, which reminds me I better get up to the Great Barrier Reef
soon, the future grand kiddies will ask about it for sure. I know I
should broach this matter of your health and the leadership of the
nation with my local federal MP, Mal Brutus Brough, but I was worried
if I planted a seed in that silly bugger's brain you could end up on
the menu at a fund raiser. It would just be all in good humour of
course, but I hear Mal's got access to your diary and a charity match
cricket bat, which is a dangerous proposition when you consider his
IQ and infamous retributional sex drive.
Go out on your own
terms Tony. Write your own future, I mean you have an unmatched skill
at rewriting history, so put your talent to good use, and write that
retirement plan now. Do a 180 and look at the inevitable future that
awaits you if you keep turning up to work sick. Euthanasia is
illegal, but when has the law ever applied to your colleagues? I'm
right aren't I. Think of yourself for once Tony and get out now
before it's too late.
Good luck cobber,
Seano.
Tuesday, 18 August 2015
The Quiet Man Who Fed the Octopus
2...beep.
5...bip. 5...bip. 2...beep. 4...barp. #...blip.
The door bolt clunked open and buzzed. The subject, head down and
hands in pockets, pushed through with his hip and walked into the
foyer. He didn’t notice the lady watering the aspidistras, but she
saw him. Later to be known as witness D, she was often fussing around
in the foyer and she didn’t miss a trick.
“They always wore hooded jackets and most of them had beards,”
she answered. Could she single out the subject though? “He always
opened the door with his hip and he never ever looked at me. All the
others looked and smiled.” And then: “Yes, he was definitely
wearing a blue hoodie, black jeans and fluoro green runners on that
day...that horrible day. I will never forget it.”
At unit 7A the subject removed the leather thonging from around his
neck and with the key threaded on it, opened the door. The apartment
was clean and sparsely furnished. A table and two chairs occupied the
dinette. The kitchen had a fridge, a kettle, and six small glass
tumblers sat inverted on a tea towel next to the sink. Everything
else was bare. One bedroom door was closed but the second was open to
reveal an assortment of rectangular mats arranged in neat rows facing
one corner. The bathroom and toilet doors were closed. The lounge
room had one sofa and on the wall opposite hung a large white sheet.
A video camera on a tripod stood in the middle of the room. On the
wall adjacent to the sofa, in stark contrast to the rest of the
place, was an aquarium. It was a six footer, illuminated and humming.
On the gravel sat an octopus.
“Hello Ahmed,” said the subject to the mollusc.
Ahmed blinked and unfurled one of its tentacles – a greeting of
sorts. The subject smiled and proceeded to the freezer. He withdrew
one pilchard and returned to slip it quickly under the tightly sealed
glass lid. Except for its pulsing siphon, Ahmed remained motionless,
watching as the pilchard sunk to the bottom corner.
“It will be thawed soon my friend.”
From a built-in a cupboard, in the hallway that led to the toilet and
bathroom, the subject removed a black backpack and placed it on the
dining table. In the meshed side pocket was a piece of paper with a
mobile phone number written on it. He took out his mobile phone and
punched in the number. He hit SAVE, looked up to ceiling for a
moment, and then punched in PARADISE. He hit SAVE again.
Noting the time, the subject twitched and reached into the back
pocket of his jeans. He removed three warm creased envelopes. He
placed them on the table, arranging them neatly like the mats in the
bedroom. The first was labelled Mum, the next Kelly, and the third
envelope was labelled Yousef, with 'not
to be opened until 12' written
in brackets underneath. He looked up to see Ahmed changing
colour and moving from his corner towards the pilchard.
The subject placed the key on the leather thonging next to the
envelopes. He slung the backpack over his right shoulder and left the
unit.
Witness D would later respond, “Yes, when he left he was carrying a
black backpack,” and, “No, I did not notice anything different
about his demeanour.”
The
train was more crowded than usual for a Friday afternoon. The regular
commuters, in various shades of workplace, pretended not to notice
the dozens of noisy young people. Their uniforms, worn to blend in
at this weekend's music festival, were much more vibrant. The
subject sat on a bench seat facing inwards in the vestibule section
of the carriage. The backpack was nestled between his knees, and he
looked straight ahead without expression. It was hard to ignore the
many nubile female buttocks hanging out of the bottom of denim short
shorts at eye level, but the subject remained poker-faced. Jostling,
giggling, and a cocktail of modern deodorants and perfumes assaulted
his other senses.
A member of the party crowd spotted the subject, “Hey, Brad. Is
that you?” He edged over to squeeze in on the bench seat. “Man
you look so different, haven’t seen you in years bro. Hey, have
some calamari.”
The seafood eater, though at least ten years older than the other
punters, sported a dozen assorted festival bands on his left wrist.
“Hey come on Brad, have some calamari. It’s the best stuff to
line your stomach. You’re going to the festival aren’t you?”
“Thank you, but I can’t eat that type of food,” replied the
subject.
“Allergy eh? My old man blows up like a balloon if he even looks at
a prawn.”
The man boy pointed at the backpack. “You know they’ll go through
that with a fine tooth comb. Pretty hard to get anything in these
days. You've got to drop the pingers, and skull down as much as you
can, before you get there. You know, pre-load. So Brad, you going or
what?”
The subject shook his head. He twisted his head and squinted to look
through the scratched window. The harbour and late afternoon sun
disappeared with a whoosh of changing air pressure. The fluorescent
lighting became apparent.
The subject took out his mobile and hit CONTACTS.
He scrolled down and stopped at PARADISE.
“So, where you going then Brad?”
The subject held up his phone to show his long lost mate the
name on the screen.
“Paradise? What are you on Brad? I’d like to give that a try.”
The hyped-up calamari-eating hipster laughed.
“Yes, paradise my friend.”
The subject hit the green call button as he kicked the backpack out
under the legs of the excited party crowd.
Friday, 5 June 2015
Three Strikes and You're Out!
I just read some
articles on the internet about a campaign against reading books
written by straight white males. It confirms a feeling that I have
had lately that it is quite fashionable at the moment in the literary
world, to prejudge the writing, and therefore the writers themselves,
who happen to find themselves born with one particular skin colour,
gender and sexual inclination as deluded privileged tyrants who
deserve to be ignored, even punished.
The issue of white
privilege is a hot topic in other arenas as well. Politics, the
environment, employment, health, and so on, are all realms of human
experience that are coming under the spotlight. And so it should be.
The current state of the world is testament to a paradigm that has
been racist, sexist, homophobic and a whole host of other
negativisms. A correction is well overdue. But as a straight white
male, is my only option to slink away, disappear, cower, confess and
accept a conviction of guilty and a sentence of banishment? Because I
have been born into the wrong skin, with wrong gender and wrong
sexual inclination, have I no rights to pursue happiness, fulfilment,
equality and justice for myself and for others – even the
non-straight non-white non-male folk? Am I by default invalid, a
non-entity?
This is my opinion –
people who are promoting this point of view, people who are screaming
at white people, especially white males, and especially straight
white males to be silent, to be ashamed, to accept a judgement that
our every thought is a delusion, and our every action is a crime,
those people who demand our submission, are only further damaging
their own efforts for justice and equality. Can't you see that your
arbitrary discrimination is exactly what you are rejecting in the
first place? I assume many of you folk that I am talking about would
be of the anti-war persuasion, but aren't you declaring war – a
racist, sexist, heterophobic war?
There is a claim that
it is impossible to be racist against white people or sexist against
men? Can you please explain that? The recent western history of white
male domination doesn't validate a future of white male oppression.
Everyone suffers at the hands of ignorance, fear, ego, greed and
hatred - the brand of human perpetrator afflicted by such dysfunction
is irrelevant.
Am I inferior or a
monster, genetically or otherwise, because my skin is fair? Or
because I am sexually attracted to the opposite sex? Or because I
have a penis? Should I save you a lot of effort and time and simply
suicide now?
The non-white,
non-straight, non-males, that despise their fellow humans of the
opposite ilk, may end up winning the war that they have declared, and
in their minds that will be justified. The world that they will
inherit via this pernicious and ignorant venture will simply be a
mirror image of what exists right here right now.
I am a straight white
male. If I was a dedicated follower of fashion, with those three
fanciful strikes against my being, I would be forced to accept that I
was out of the game. I would give up writing, and everything else,
because I am obsolete. But if you could see what I am wearing, what I
am reading, eating, watching and doing, you will know I am no sheep
nor game player. And if you could ever bring yourself to read what I
am writing, and yes I am pounding away at it regardless, you will
hear my story and it will be just like your story. A story of a
consciousness dwelling inside an organic form possessing skin,
genitals and libido, that evolved on this wondrous and benevolent
planet.
We can all listen to
each other.
Thursday, 27 November 2014
Schooling the World: A Recipe for Competition, Compliance & Consumerism
Shift
A healthy social life is found only, when in the mirror of each soul the whole community finds its reflection, and when in the whole community the virtue of each one is living.
- Rudolf Steiner
Humans need community – planet earth built us that way. We are social animals that not only survive physically by cohabitating with each other, but we thrive emotionally and psychologically when our groups are functional and nurturing.
One of the symptoms of an upside-down, insane world, that is collapsing around us, is that the human inhabitants are running around in circles, grieving the loss of community, and wondering how on earth to recreate it. Ironically, in a world of over seven billion people we are lonely and lack a sense of belonging. People are yearning for meaningful connection with each other and with the natural world from which we evolved. Simply stated, modern industrialised and capitalised society is not conducive to healthy, happy, human communities.
A comprehensive analysis of the causes of the downfall of community in the modern world would be a massive task. The scope of this piece will focus on one hypothesis: that the modern compulsory schooling system has created generation after generation of individuals that have been indoctrinated to be compliant consumers and competitors in a human race that effectively destroys community. That community still exists at all is due to the resilience of our true innate nature to live in harmonious groups that share and care for each other and the natural world that supports us.
‘Educating’ for economic growth
The reality of schooling for many of today’s children is approximately thirteen years – from the ages of five to eighteen – of compulsory training in highly regulated institutions. Children who are not getting this brand of “education” are deemed to be disadvantaged, and global efforts are directed towards every single child on the whole planet being gifted with the opportunity to sit in a classroom for the duration of their childhood. The craziness of this is rarely contemplated because we have either been indoctrinated ourselves by the same regime or, if we missed out on school, we have been sold the lie that school is the best form of education for children. We therefore send our offspring off for daily instruction, in their uniforms, without even a question.
During this decade-plus of compulsory training, children are delivered a prescribed syllabus that has been predetermined to be essential for success in the contemporary world. Their skills and performance are constantly measured and ranked within class groups, and even on national and international scales. These educational levels – or should they be called employability skills? – are championed by government and business leaders as essential for a nation’s economic success in an increasingly competitive world marketplace. If our children do not come out of the education system more technically adept – and therefore more economically productive – than their parents, the nation will fall behind on the global playing field. This is then sensationally extrapolated by media commentators as a certain disaster that will result in falling living standards for the populace. Perpetual economic growth depends on the increased productivity of the next generation. We can clearly see the ethical issues related to factory farming of animals to satisfy our rapacious hunger for more, but we are essentially blind to the human factories called schools.
Children are well aware of their place in the pecking order. If it is not on a chart on the classroom wall, it is sent home to the parents in regular report cards so they can assess whether their offspring deserve reward or punishment. Imagine if adults were informed that they would be forced to attend a decade of full-time prescribed training at which they would continually be assessed and disciplined to improve their performance, behaviour and attitude. Some might argue at this point that adults, once they leave school, are actually forced into institutions (workplaces), and trained and ranked and pushed to perform for 40 years. Maybe that explains why we “school” our children – the reality of a lifetime of servitude is so entrenched in our psyche that preparing children for this is the kindest thing to do. The insidiousness of this is that we lie to our kids that doing well at school is the pathway to wealth, freedom and happiness. The expectation to be grateful for a first class school education, so as to become a contributing member of a sick society, is surely the final insult. To actually get away with this type of child abuse, a lot of bullshit is required.
School ≠ education
The biggest lie of all is to label school as education. Most of us accept education, in the true sense of the word, as an essential requirement for a meaningful life, but the compulsory schooling of children to train them for the workforce is not education. The Jesuit doctrine of ‘Give me the child for his first seven years, and I’ll give you the man’, has been usurped by modern secular society to ensure that we all ‘become a useful member of society’. Innate human curiosity and a love of learning are systematically and effectively destroyed by the school system. Ask any year 12 student why they are studying so hard for their final exams and they will tell you it is for the marks, not for knowledge or understanding and certainly not for the love of learning.
The school children who challenge, question, and resist the system are targeted for reform by humiliating discipline, and are shunned and condemned as failures. It is not hard to imagine future archaeologists, sifting through the ruins of modern industrialised civilisation and struggling to understand why the artefacts of the school system obviously point to the enslavement of children. What won’t be such a mystery will be that a civilisation that did practice such universal child abuse would eventually collapse.
The mass production of unquestioning, self-loathing and competitive consumers is an art form that has been carefully crafted ever since the invention of the modern school system required by the industrial revolution. Its success has been outstanding. The human race is now seven billion people striving and competing against each other for their slice of the planet. The rapidly declining state of the planet in the wake of this madness is hardly a surprising outcome. In fact, the current state of affairs is so bad, that many humans are convinced that Homo sapiens is a fundamentally flawed quirk of the evolutionary process, and that our destiny is to wipe ourselves out. And because we are a mistake, an evolutionary dead end, the sooner we exit stage earth the better – we truly do hate ourselves. Some have decided to give up and run away to the ‘dark mountain’ to observe the inevitable collapse. The rest of us are scratching our heads, wondering how it all went so pear-shaped, and what the hell are we going to do about it.
Educating the next generation
The evidence is steadily mounting to debunk the myth, still vociferously defended by those already on top of the heap, that studying hard to get the marks to climb the socio-economic ladder is the pathway to a good life. Unfortunately, the indoctrination has been so thorough that parents still blindly send their offspring off to school at the tender age of four or five – I know I did it without batting an eye. The cycle of abuse needs to be broken. While ever we continue to school the next generation to be competitive consumers, to not trust themselves or others, to view the planet as a resource for our own use and abuse, then we will only continue to get what we are getting now. It is not community; it is a plague.
Every one of us has a responsibility to stop and take stock of where we are at and where we are heading. Any rational assessment will uncover a very unpleasant and confronting reality. It is little wonder that so many of us distract ourselves from this unfolding nightmare with the mindless indulgences of sex, drugs, celebrity, and spectator sports. If we dare profess that we want a better future for our children, then surely a serious and critical look at why we train our kids to contribute to a society that is destroying the planet is well overdue.
Community naturally springs from the collective beliefs and actions of the people that reside and intermingle with each other. Let’s be honest, a good community is a nice place to be, a place where people feel welcomed and valued for simply being themselves. If we are going to school our children, then humility, co-operation, kindness to others, creativity and critical thinking ought to be the core of the curriculum. The modern compulsory school system has manufactured a population of ambitious, competitive, ignorant and fearful consumers who lack the essential attributes required for healthy, happy, and sustainable communities. Decent communities must have, at the very least, decent people.
The good news is that despite the lengthy and rigorous training of our schooling system there still exists deep within us a desire to be social, peaceable and loving animals. We are hanging in there.
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